1. |
Fly
01:41
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It’s here again and it might get me this time
It eats away at me every single day but I’ll be fine
I wish my brain could jump out and fly away
But everyone I love would think I’d stayed
It’s a depressing thought I know
I just hope that death is not slow
There’s no way this could get worse
It’s like an everlasting curse
It lands on me and licks its hands
Gives me a taste I’m such a waste
So it buzzes off and hits the ground
Everything around me dies
I think I’m beyond saving this time
Words mean nothing now is that a sign
I don’t do anything with all my days
I’m learning pain the hard way
There is no meaning to life
I’m losing the drive
There’s no way this could get worse
It’s like an everlasting curse
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2. |
All I Want
03:28
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So what if I were to say I’m still hung over you?
I’ve always assumed that’s something you wouldn’t feel too
I’ve just accepted it now that you were the only one
I’d do it all over again it’d be so much fun
I’ve been having some heavy withdrawals of
All your love
I’ve tried everything to get over you
But I still think about you every day, through and through
You knew every single flaw of mine and I ignored yours
You were perfect to me why did you close the door
This isn’t how it was supposed to be
We had our lives planned out now I’ll never be free
Cause all I want is you
And all I want is you
All I want is you
And all I want is you
You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again
You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again
You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again
You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again
Cause all I want is you
And all I want is you
All I want is you
(You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again)
And all I want is you
(You like playing hard to get
I would gladly play again)
All I want is you
And all I want is you
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3. |
Dumb Idiot
02:59
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Don’t you see the other kids, what’s wrong with you?
Why can’t you just do what you’re supposed to do?
Function like a normal member of society
Try to ignore your stupid anxiety
You’ve been a very bad kid
Look at all the dumb things you did
You’ve been a very bad boy
Seeing you suffer fills me with joy
Don’t you see the other kids doing what’s right?
And you’re over here just wasting your life
You might work differently than all the rest
But that’s no excuse, you’ll never be the best
We all know you’re mentally ill
But why are so lacking in skills?
Get up boy and listen to me
Seeing you’re sad face fills me with glee
You’re a fuckin’ dumb idiot
I guess I’ll never be as good as them
I’ll never be the shining gem
They all know I’m mentally ill
They just don’t care they never will
I’ll stay here and just be lazy
Hearing their mean words drives me crazy
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4. |
Dancing In The Rain
05:22
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It’s been raining all day today
Blue skies lately have turned a little more gray
I see your shadow out there
I couldn’t do anything but just sit and stare
And oh, it’ll rain on us
For some reason it’s just so hard to find anyone to trust
It’s been raining all day today
The gray skies would go away though if you just danced with me
Nobody’s been as nice to me as you were
When I talk to them I feel like they don’t care about a single word
Everyone pushes me away
You did the same, why couldn’t you just stay
And oh, it’ll rain on us
For some reason it’s just so hard to find anyone to trust
Oh, rain all over me
Is it because I’m a bad person, it’s hard to disagree
It looks like the world is gonna flood
My childhood will die with me as I sink into the mud
Nobody’s happy, nobody wants me, everyone is stressed, everyone needs rest
Now the world is coming down and we are all left here to drown
I know it’s been a little rainy lately
Is it where I live or is it me
We’re too used to it now though
We can’t keep living this slow
But with the rain comes beautiful flowers
We won’t go out to help them because we are cowards
Take my hand we’ll go out there and shower
Dance in the rain for literal hours
Do you feel this love
Rain down on us
Do you feel the ground
As we start to drown
Do you see my face
This is my place
Do you see my eyes
As I start to die
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5. |
Locust
01:26
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Sometimes I pass people when I’m driving or walking around town
And their face morphs into yours, I can’t escape you
You’re all around me and your ghost haunts me
I thought I was supposed to be okay by now
I’ve screamed for you, but do you even hear me?
I’ll do anything for you, do you hear me?
I’ve screamed for you, but do you even hear me?
I’ll do anything for you, do you hear me through the swarm?
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6. |
Ghosts Tonight
03:08
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Do you notice how our lives are gone?
Do you notice how we float?
Do you want a life with no responsibility?
Do you want a life where you are free?
We’re ghosts tonight
We’re ghosts tonight
It’s gonna be over soon
All this pain will go away
We’re ghosts
We’re dead now
We’re free
From this life
I just wanna live with you
Take my life away
We’re ghosts tonight
We’re ghosts tonight
We’re ghosts
We’re dead now
We’re free
From this life
Will you float with me?
Will you die with me?
Would you throw your life away for me?
Cuz I know I’d do it for you
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Sometimes I wonder if my life means anything compared to yours
I always forget, I always forget who I was before you
Just take my life away now, you are more important
Take my friends away
Take my family away
Everyone I loved is gone
There's only you, but I'm okay with that
I'd let you drown me if it means we drown together
Please
Please just drown me
Just drown me
Drown me
Please drown me
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8. |
I Love You
02:39
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I’ve been thinking
About you, let’s sing
It hurts me to say this now
But unfortunately you’ll never come around, again
I hope you’re happy where you are though
I don’t hate you but I guess you’ll never know, that
You can always hate me if it’s how you really feel
I’m just glad we had something that was real, sometimes
You hurt me a lot but it’s all in the past now
And now your voice is just a nostalgic sound, to me
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think about you all the time
I’ve come to accept that now, I know it’s no crime, anymore
Because I will always love you
You don’t stop loving someone you do
I will always love you
That doesn’t mean you have to love me too
I will always love you
And that’s all I’ll ever do
I will always love you
And that’s all I’ll ever do
Because I will always love you
You don’t stop loving someone you do
I will always love you
That doesn’t mean you have to love me too
I will always love you
And that’s all I’ll ever do
I will always love you
And that’s all I’ll ever do
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9. |
Moth
01:37
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You’re the only one I have ever loved
Without your love I’d probably be dead
I’m drawn to you and only you baby
Without your love I’d be way too free
I don’t care how much it burns, keep this light on
I don’t want you gone, just stay until dawn dear
My love
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10. |
Down Towards The Healing
04:00
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Some dumb kid finds himself lost and all alone
He reached for his pocket knife after he ran from home
Convinced that the world was out to get him
So he marked his skin
You don’t know how bad it’s been
The same dumb kid thinks there’s no reason to move on
And that the world would be a better place if he was just gone
The kid was me all along
It’s still so fucking hard sometimes to just stay strong
My skin is still scarred
Staying alive was hard
I didn’t see the purpose then and I barely see it now
The kid took some pills and cut on his wrist
Headed towards the nearest train tracks in the mist
Tears falling down his face as he thought about his loved ones
Staying alive for them wasn’t worth it now, he was just done
Three bright lights looked him right in his eyes
Nobody would even care if this is how he dies
He thought it was the way down towards the healing
Nothing could stop those daily painful feelings
But right as the train was about to catch him
Something pushed him away, I still don’t know what it could have been
I still don't know what it could have been
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11. |
Dance Party
04:26
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So after all this time do you still hate me and every single characteristic
I couldn’t say the same about you, even if I think you did me dirty
It still hurts a lot
Knowing that you don’t care
So do you really want me to rot and die because I was just that bad
I hope your new man treats you right in your eyes because I still don’t know what I did
So if you were given the opportunity would you put an end to me
I hate that fucking thought
You still mean everything to me
So if you were given the opportunity would you turn back time
And make sure you never met me
I don’t like that one bit
Now I only feel
Like I’ve been left out
So if you were given the opportunity would you put an end to me
What a mean thing
To want
So if you were given the opportunity would you blame everything on me
I think I know the answer
But that doesn’t matter anymore
You pushed yourself out of my life
And that’s okay
If that’s what you really wanted
None of it even matters anymore
You pushed me away a long time ago
Asking you why doesn’t matter
Because I’ll never get my answer
I will always feel
Like you were left out
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12. |
Oh My God
05:15
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I’m in a different place now
One much worse
I can see you from here
And all the ones I love
Don’t go looking for me
I think you already know where I am
That horrible sickness
Finally got the best of me
How do I get back down
And why have I done this
I didn’t think I’d regret it
But here I am more sad than before
Oh my god
This can’t be happening
I miss you
I want to see you again
I’m so sorry
For what I did
If I could turn back time
I swear I wouldn’t let it happen again
But it’s too late
I didn’t care about you at the time
I’m so sorry
Was it a selfish thing to do
But I better not see you up here anytime soon
It’s not your time yet
Call me hypocritical
I don’t care, stay alive for me
And I’ll ask you this, do you all miss me too
And I’ll ask you this, was my life just a lie
I still don’t even know, what I’m doing up here
I’m so sorry, to anyone who ever believed in me
And oh my god, did I really die
And oh my god, is it all really gone now
Oh my god, I want to come back
Oh my god
Oh my god
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13. |
Wasp
02:41
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Do you see it circling around the room around your head when you’re alone?
Every time I see another one it chills me to the bone
Anxiety spikes through the roof when I see one has gotten in the house
Afraid it’s gonna sting me and I can’t even shout
For help, because I need it
It’s only a matter of time before I give up and quit
It hurts, so fucking much
Don’t leave me to rot here and feel its painful touch
They’re so hard to kill when you don’t have the right equipment
I don’t even know what the rest of my life will be spent
Doing, because I’ve seen it all
Every time I see the sky I just feel so small
It hurts, so fucking much
Don’t leave me to rot here and feel its painful touch
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They held me when I needed them
They showed me a better place
Those dreams where I felt so free
Those dreams where I didn’t have to worry anymore
I’ve always wanted a place that was perfectly in between life and death
Free of conscious but still alive so I don’t have to feel the pain of everyday life and disappoint everyone who loves me
If I could just sleep forever, I would
Some of those dreams were so fucking beautiful
But somehow I could never outrun the nightmares
And alarm clocks acted as harsh reality checks
I know it doesn’t seem super practical, but sleeping feels like the only productive thing I do anymore
And sometimes saves me from what I’d do to myself if I were still awake
Awake
They held me when I needed them
They showed me a better place
Those dreams where I felt so free
But every goddamn dream has to come to an end
And that’s why it was always impossible to run in my dreams
There is no escape
You’ll make it through this day somehow
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15. |
Waking Up
03:14
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Sometimes I feel like I don’t live up to the standards people set for me
I think your standards are full of shit now, I’ll set my own just let me be
Why do people feel the need to be mean to me for no goddamn reason?
I’ve had enough now those people are gone, was it the change of the fucking season?
No money equals no life
You’re useless if you don’t have a wife
No college education means you’re dumb
If you dress weird, where did you come from?
No job and you must be lazy
If you’re mentally ill then you’re just crazy
No good looks then you’re a monster
I think all of this is just what you prefer
Stop and don’t worry about the standards that people will set for you
Go out and do your own thing, do what you just want to do
I’ve had enough
Of being hurt
Sometimes I feel like I don’t live up to the standards people set for me
I think your standards are full of shit now, I’ll set my own just let me be
Because I’m waking up
I’m waking up
Why do people feel the need to be mean to me for no goddamn reason?
(I’m waking up)
I’ve had enough now those people are gone, was it the change of the fucking season?
(I’m waking up)
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16. |
Butterfly
03:41
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I’ve come out of this
Such a mess
It’s bittersweet bliss
Relieving all of this stress
It all used to hurt me so bad
But now it doesn’t get to me like that
I used to be so fucking sad
But thinking about it differently I’m harder to get at
I know it’ll never quite go away
So it’s best to learn to live with all the gray
Everything is going to be okay
So please listen to me and stay
It lands on me and licks it’s hands
Gives me a taste, I’m not a waste
So it picks me up opens my eyes
It will never die
It shows me the nectar through the dark forest
Tells me to get there it’s quite a test
It’s worth it though
I’m so lucky to still have my life
It’s gonna be okay
You’ll make it through this day
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